I need ten minutes to vent. So I’m giving myself that time starting…NOW!
(Feel free to stop reading now, but I need this time for me.)
This week has been crazy, chaotic, and lots of other adjectives that I’m too tired to think of. And did I mention it’s only Tuesday?
Welcome to my life this semester—running from class to class and then from one club meeting to another club meeting. And then try cramming sleeping, eating, doing homework and some other necessities into the mix and this girl is hoping around like a Mexican jumping bean.
Today alone I had three club meetings—two of the three being ones that I hold executive positions in. The third of which will be pushed to the back burner this year.
I feel like I should take a moment to mention how blessed I am, how blessed I feel, to be able to do all this—to go to school and get an education, to work alongside some amazing people. Plus being able to spend a lot of that time alongside some of my best friends, well that just makes it nearly perfect. And this I know.
But as I said in the beginning of this post, I’m venting.
Because if I don’t…I don’t even want to know what will happen.
So as I said, I stepped back from the third club meeting I had today bringing my total club participation back down to five(SIFE secretary, Relay for Life Logistics Chair, OLA, RHA secretary, and SVEA member). And that makes me breathe a little easier.
I’m pretty sure the only thing keeping me sane right now is the fact that I know I’m not alone—that my friends are trudging along beside me through this. That we’re going to get through this. It will get easier once we get into a groove…of weekly meetings and nightly homework assignments. And my friends and I are going to have a blast along the way because that’s how we do everything—loud and laughing.
And a couple more notes…
This summer as I read my way through the Sookie Stackhouse novels, an idea came to me. In it, the werewolf Alcide abjured a woman whom he loved because she double-crossed him. To him she was invisible, no longer his issue. Out of sight, out of mind.
A piece of that stuck with me and today I realized how maybe Alcide was onto something. After sharing with B, who has been trying her hardest to stay just as positive as I am about things, she came up with a little saying for us that I am absolutely in love with right now, “Make friends, keep friends, and the people that piss you off are invisible.”
So that’s what I’m going to do. I’ve made so many friends in the past two weeks alone and strengthened others. I’m going to work extremely hard to maintain these friendships, staying a friend and being a friend. And those people that don’t mesh with my positive thinking attitude—I’m just going to forget about them.
As juvenile as that might sound, I need to do it for me. Because if I don’t, I might go crazy. Peoples’ emotions and ideas very easily sway my own emotions and thinking so I refuse to surround myself with mean and rude people. Refuse. I know I have to learn to work with them. I do. And one day I will. But for now…they’re invisible.
And that is it, the end of my rant. I may have gone over my ten minute limit.
But I’m feeling a lot better. So I guess it was successful??
I hope each of you are having less stressful weeks then I am!